Moving forward, as I write this post I am in constant thinking of what to do in the coming days while in quarantine.
Ma is not around anymore. I just want that assurance that I will be okay.
During my mother's burial I was already expecting that our estranged father would come visit and pay his last respect. After all he was still the legal spouse and he has the right to be there, at least, in the eyes of people of who knew our family. When I saw him I was still … Continue reading Scar Tissue
My heart is hurting. I was not able to hold and speak to Mama closely, physically. We are a hundred miles a part at the time she was maybe feeling it that she might go. She died on a Monday morning. It was sunny and humid here in Manila. I did not bother to ask … Continue reading I Just Have To (Part II)
I lost my Mama. It is almost three months today. Her passing came like a whirlwind, like a tornado. All swift and instant. Leaving you devastated and ground zero. Losing someone in the family to an illness is nothing to compare the feeling of hurt, longing, anger and sadness. I am not yet okay. It … Continue reading I Just Have To
I deactivated my Facebook account for a good two months last year or so I think. Unsure of how many months but I really did. This was when the onset of a stricter lockdown in the metro was happening. The consumption of news via television and my mobile phone have dawned in me three months … Continue reading ANXIOUS
I took this photo after attending the Sunday mass with my mother and brothers. It was my first time to visit Manila Cathedral after a few years of staying in the city. Never has it come up to me to go and experience its grandeur and rich history. Two days before Sunday I suggested to … Continue reading Looking Back